It took over 24 hours for my brain battery to run out of juice. I didn't sleep well, 5 hours at most waking up a lot (as always in changed environments, and this was even an entirely new one), 2 more hours over the day, and I've been among people pretty much constantly. That's... incredible. … Continue reading Family
The Other Side of Suicide
This. Oh dear.
Gehirn
Dieses Jahr war eine komplette Achterbahn für mich in fast allen Bereichen außer denen, die vorher meistens Achterbahnen verursacht haben.
Finding an emotional needle in a haystack of self-protection
For a few minutes after having finished watching, I didn't know what to say. Everyone who knows me how rare that is - everyone who knows me probably never even ever saw me speechless. Episode 3 of season 4 of Sherlock hit me like nothing I have ever seen in any show, videogame, or movie. … Continue reading Finding an emotional needle in a haystack of self-protection
Autism & love lecture by Kirsten Lindsmith
I just finished watching a lecture about love and autism, which talks a lot especially about social situations with autists.
Exploring the family tree
I got a digital ancestry (family tree) from my grandparents for christmas. I actually never really looked into it, but I did now.
#notjustsad
I watched some (new) feels-focused videos, and now I’m on a heavy feels-trip. Having any emotions at all is so rare for me currently the smallest stuff hits hard. It went downhill right when I got out of stationary therapy june last year, but going off my meds around new year’s eve caused a week-long heavily … Continue reading #notjustsad
Improving lives
One of my favourite people on earth is Thomas "TomSka" Ridgewell, known for the asdf-movies on his YouTube-Channel, which was my favourite thing as a teenager and is still way high up there today. Since over a year, he releases a weekly ~30-minute-vlog on his second channel. It is full of his personal- and work-life, … Continue reading Improving lives
Bewältigung
EDIT: Ca. einen Monat nach diesem Beitrag hat der Alkohol aufgehört zu funktionieren, also hab ich aufgehört ihn zu trinken. - Ja, es stimmt. Ich habe angefangen, Alkohol zu trinken. Ich bin noch bei wenig, ein, höchstens zwei Drinks alle 1-2 Tage im Rahmen von 10-20cl höherprozentigem (20-40%), gemischt mit Softdrinks. Ohne es zu mischen kann … Continue reading Bewältigung
/r/SuicideWatch
Dieser Post wurde so von mir auf dem SubReddit /r/SuicideWatch veröffentlicht. Kopie kommt hier rein, der Vollständigkeit halber. -------------------------------------------------------------------------- I am writing this here, because until now I had a blog in german for venting or just writing about my thoughts & life, but now I'm fluent enough in english to write this kind of … Continue reading /r/SuicideWatch