Dieses Jahr war eine komplette Achterbahn für mich in fast allen Bereichen außer denen, die vorher meistens Achterbahnen verursacht haben.

For a few minutes after having finished watching, I didn't know what to say. Everyone who knows me how rare that is - everyone who knows me probably never even ever saw me speechless. Episode 3 of season 4 of Sherlock hit me like nothing I have ever seen in any show, videogame, or movie. … Continue reading Finding an emotional needle in a haystack of self-protection

I just finished watching a lecture about love and autism, which talks a lot especially about social situations with autists.

I got a digital ancestry (family tree) from my grandparents for christmas. I actually never really looked into it, but I did now.

I watched some (new) feels-focused videos, and now I’m on a heavy feels-trip. Having any emotions at all is so rare for me currently the smallest stuff hits hard. It went downhill right when I got out of stationary therapy june last year, but going off my meds around new year’s eve caused a week-long heavily … Continue reading #notjustsad

One of my favourite people on earth is Thomas "TomSka" Ridgewell, known for the asdf-movies on his YouTube-Channel, which was my favourite thing as a teenager and is still way high up there today. Since over a year, he releases a weekly ~30-minute-vlog on his second channel. It is full of his personal- and work-life, … Continue reading Improving lives

Dieser Post wurde so von mir auf dem SubReddit /r/SuicideWatch veröffentlicht. Kopie kommt hier rein, der Vollständigkeit halber. -------------------------------------------------------------------------- I am writing this here, because until now I had a blog in german for venting or just writing about my thoughts & life, but now I'm fluent enough in english to write this kind of … Continue reading /r/SuicideWatch

Der letzte Eintrag ist schon wieder etwas her. Ich musste mein Studium abbrechen. Mein Arbeitsvertrag wurde nicht verlängert und ich konnte es nicht länger finanzieren - für Arbeitslosengeld darf man kein Student sein. Arbeit zu Ende, Studium zu Ende - das hat mich ganz schön gekillt. Also bin ich in eine Klinik gegangen. Keine Akutklinik … Continue reading Alles auf Anfang.